2013...in review

My favorite pastime this year hands down was browsing Pinterest. The site is like a black hole, Bermuda Triangle. My form of heaven during a boring slow work day.  So what better way to do a recap of the year than using what I found so damn interesting throughout it...



In the beginning of the year I began doing more Accounting work at my job. Something I would haven't given a thought...ever...but turns out I kind of like it and plan to take a basic bookkeeping class in the Spring ...Perhaps this is my true calling...NOT ;-)





My work crush...one day he will have his own post, titled "I said YES"...it works on so many levels.



Spring found me reconnecting with an old childhood friend. Despite being apart for uh since 6th grade we act like no time has passed at all.



Most if not many conversations were about...



and 

While I wanted to be all 



S was like...



So as Summer started my thought process was...



and thanks to finding a really cool bar and making some cool friends I had thoughts of

  and 


During this time I decided that I would embark on a "hair growth journey". 

Me then



Me now...



Good times were approaching because Fall brought New York ComicCon. My first time ever!!! My 



and I had a blast.

Then came the best month of the whole year, November. I was all



because on the 18th it was.

But I was also a little melancholy because I kept asking S  

Me during the cooler/colder months 



2013 had me saying goodbye to people I never thought I would let go of

  

I cried and then I said

 

The year wasn't always filled with roses. I had my share of thorns. We won't think about those because



Check out my Pinterest boards here when you want to lose a few hours.



Until next time, xo

What about your friends...

Monday was my birthday and throughout the day I kept being mindful of things that would have bothered me a year or two years ago that don't today.

Working on my birthday.

Being single.

50/50 contentment at my job.

I shrug them off and keep it moving.

Yet one thing that stung and lingered is the ending of two friendships. Two friends that I thought would be in my camp for LIFE. They have seen me through happiness-is-life-at-this-moment and some really fucked up, rough, I'm your shoulder/rock when you need it times. But time and experiences change people. They changed me.

I could have continued with the friendships. Stood by while one said hurtful things and the other said nothing at all.

A friendship in memory only.

I could have waited for time and experience to work their magic and brings back what I was missing. Eventually it would have happened, it did in the past.

These two friends weren't part of a threesome. I was friends with each separately. So to lose both at the same time should have reeked havoc on my emotions...it didn't, not in the way I thought it would.

I had time to plan.  I played a loop of ending things in the back of my mind every time something good or bad happened. While the friendships weren't near deaths door, hanging on by a thread they weren't tightly bound either.

As each day went by I thought "This isn't too bad. I want to call her but..."

I didn't want to fight it, or whine about it.  I didn't want to have text go unanswered. Or hear the "beep" of leave a message.

Effort is a two way street.

I took a page from their playbook and I dropped it.

I deleted and blocked both on FB. Not because I am angry or hate them. I didn't want reminders of what I let go of in the process of growing up.

I still love them and wish them all the best in life.

But...

These two women were the first to tell me over and over...never beg anyone to stay when all signs show they want to go.

On my birthday one showed signs she wants to reconnect, complete with text and email. The reasons behind my choice to break contact don't give me much room for self respect in my eyes. No reunions here.

Even if we are due for one...since the last time she spoke to me was November 18, 2012